Self care is a good. Starting the day with sinus pain is bad. Balance seems futile.
Sinus pain has been a constant part of my week. I wake up feeling like I’ve had a cuh-ray-zee night out drinking but I did not. I do a sinus rinse, if i can get an appointment, acupuncture works wonders. This pain laughs at over the counter pain medications. Yes, even the ones for severe migraines. Nausea likes to come along for the ride. I have no choice but to surrender to the N word: Nothing. This pain usually hits me once monthly but it’s been making more frequent appearances lately. Have I called the doctor whose number I got months ago? No.
The first part of the day is spent brooding over all the productive things I could be doing if my sinuses would just love me & leave me alone. Then I feel sorry for myself because my partner is away so I have to go buy my own soup & make tea for myself :-’(. I go between sleeping & looking at social media sites. Then late in the afternoon something clicks. I just submit to it. I am not feeling well. The only thing I need to do right now is take care of myself.
I put on my comfy, fuzzy sweats. I bundle myself in winter gear & go for a walk. I get myself ginger for tea, sinus pain medication that worked one time & chicken noodle soup. I walk slowly. No New Yorker pace for me today. When I get home I make a doctor’s appointment I’ve been putting off. I finally call the E.N.T. (ear nose & throat) specialist a friend suggested & left a message. I climb in bed with my beloved pillows. I cancel work for the night. I rest.
As I lay waiting for the pain to go away, I think about how seldom I allow myself to do nothing. It’s so easy to work, work, work when one loves the work one does. However, down time is just as important. I always make sure to have a charger on me for my phone. One lives in the house & one lives in my bag. I make sure that my phone has ample battery power recovery time. Yet, I run as if I have limitless battery at times. We all need to recharge.
So, I am asking you to join me this week in doing ONE self-care thing a day. I even printed out a little chart. I am going to buy myself some gold star stickers like back in elementary school too. Don’t judge me. I printed this calendar out on an index card in business card size. I’ve decided that morning meditation is the ONE self-care activity that I am absolutely committing to for the week. It is extremely useful for me to start the day this way. Here is a list of 50 ways to practice self care without a dime if you’re stumped on finding your ONE.
I’ll post about how it goes. Let me know how it goes for you. Sometimes enlisting the help of others aids us in accountability. Being accountable, especially to ourselves, is important. Someone I know always says: “Hey, even penguins get cold”.
So, I lay down my superwoman cape & pick up a warm hat & scarf. Let’s Go!
This is my star card as of Friday 4 for 4 in my morning meditations: